Letter to Noah

Dear Noah, 

What is Christmas like in heaven? Does Jesus take you by the hand and share with you the true story of his birth? Do you sing with the angels all the many carols proclaiming the birth of Christ, while looking upon His face? I'm sure you are leading the choir.

It seems like you are forever away, but you seem so close when I think of what you must be doing right now. It's almost like you are on a wonderful vacation and waiting for us to meet you there. I often wonder if you've even had a chance to miss me yet, or look down upon us to see how our life is playing out...but then I realize...it wouldn't be heaven if you could, for then you would see the hurt and sadness that I feel so often. I'm ok with believing that you have been so busy with Jesus and all the wonderful people to meet and things to do there that you haven't had a chance to miss me. I'm ok with that. I'm ok with you not looking over me because this is YOUR TIME TO LIVE, so live! Run, run, run like you've never ran before. Jump, hop, skip like no one can. You are forever free from any abnormalities that you once had to carry. So you enjoy every part!

I enjoy my time here with your dad and Daylee, but I am anxious to be HOME. I can't wait to know what it feels like to not feel sadness or depression, pain or fear. What it feels like to not cry because you miss someone soooo much. What it feels like to look Jesus face to face, hear Him speak, and hold His hand. WOW...those thoughts are mind blowing! 

I miss you more everyday...I try to catch a glimpse of you in Daylee as she sleeps or in what she says. She just doesn't have your people skills...lol. But then again, no one ever will! 

Well, Santa has arrived and Dayday is asleep. Oh and one more thing, I promise you that Dayday will ALWAYS be taught about our Jesus and His birth and the real meaning of Christmas. She asks a million questions about God, Jesus, Heaven, and You...and I tell her the truth about it all. My job is to make sure my children make it Home....and I am 50% good on that promise to God. 

We love you and think of you all the time. I know this letter is for me, but if Jesus should share it with you, then know that I am very proud to say I AM YOUR MOMMY. You and Dayday are my dream come true. And I will continue to make you proud of the legacy you've left behind!!!! See you soon sweetheart!

    

Love,

Mommy